Eleven years ago today, I stood before friends, family and a preacher and said "I do." I was apprehensive, but really thought I was marrying prince charming. Well, 11 years, 2 kids and one divorce later, I can say I firmly believe there is no such thing as prince charming. For many reasons, this marriage did not have a happy ending. I'll tell you, so you can guard yourself in your own relationships, selfishness and pride should have no place in any relationship.
So, today, I am celebrating my new life. Is it what I always wanted? No. Am I content? Mostly. I would say, there are a few times that I have pangs to be with someone. I think that's because that's all I've known. Well, I am not run by "primal" urges, so here I sit single, not dating, enjoying being me. I haven't really had much of a clue who I was for a long time, but I appreciate my discoveries. I know that rushing into anything with someone new would just be stupid. I am enjoying being a mom to my 2 girls, a cashier and whatever I can be to my friends. Most weeks, I don't have much time for talking on the phone and stuff like that, but I grab a few minutes here and a few minutes there to catch up on things with them. I am so glad to have the good friends I do! I have cultivated relationships with co-workers that I barely saw before now that I am on a new schedule. We have a blast nearly every lunch break! Though this is not my ideal job (you know, when I was young and impressionable), I really do love the people I work with.
Oh and my new church. LOVE IT! I love being able to wear what I am comfortable in and being accepted! I don't feel guilty anymore for listening to Casting Crowns, Steven Curtis Chapman and many more like them. I feel truly welcomed by the other members and have even been asked to join the choir. I don't know if I am going to do that, but I have a few weeks before that's even an option. Right now they are prepping for a big performance in April. March is a little too late to join and be prepared for an April performance, lol.
So, it's not so bad being unmarried. It's not so bad being just me. I never knew that before.
