OK, so I got up late this morning. For some reason, the cell (which is what I use for an alarm clock) hadn't "sprung forward" so I missed Sunday school and it was questionable if I'd be able to get ready in time for church. My back was aching pretty good and I just didn't think I could get moving fast enough to make it to church, so I decided to stay home and watch some on TV. I turned to one from Harmony Hill Baptist Church and was blessed to listen.
So the sermon really had a lot to do with marriage. I saw some insights into my part of the failure of my marriage, but I also think the information would be good in ANY relationship. The one phrase that rings out to me is "You can't fix the problem by fixing the blame." Basically, you can't change someone else. You are responsible for your actions and your reactions to others. The pastor pointed out that your ability to forgive others is in direct relation to your relationship with Christ. I truly believe this. I can tell you from an honest position, I was not close to God. I didn't meet with him regularly. I let going to church be my spiritual food. Oh sure, I "tried" to read and pray, but I was too "busy" for it most times. I have found in the last few months, as I put a larger focus on God in my life, it really helps change your outlook. I am still working on things, certainly not perfect, but I am more open to God's leading in my life than I ever have been.
Oh and now I am off to watch Extreme Makeover: Home Edition reruns on TV Land. I LOVE that show! They do amazing things for incredible people! I cry at least a little at every show. I actually watch them partly for this reason. I have shut off a lot of emotions over the years because of things that I've suffered through and I don't want to be that person anymore. I want to let go of the past and be a better friend, co-worker, daughter, mother, etc and I think developing some empathy is in order.
