So, in the last year, I have realized that I can do more for myself than I ever thought possible. I have learned how to change a headlight (low beam, not brave enough to do high beams), a blinker light, keep my oil changed (and got a great deal by buying the oil/filter myself and taking it to a shop for them to change it at cost), and even performed a full tune-up on a push mower. It's not completely shocking, as I've always been a bit mechanically inclined, but I am so proud of myself for even trying. I even got the nifty pink tools in the pink bag to do it with, lol! Oh yeah and I catch myself eying up the socket sets, knowing one day I will need them.
I think, I lost myself along the way and I am having a blast finding myself. Finding out what I can do and what I just need to throw my hands up and admit defeat about. I am glad to be free to explore who ME really is! Some things have changed, most have not. I have found that forgiveness comes easier than trust. I guess that's the whole "once bitten, twice shy" thing.
One thing I have decided to do is become more involved in my church. Now a year ago, I was in a completely different church, but I am doing more at my new church than I was doing before. This summer I am volunteering to teach preschoolers on Wednesday nights, which is a TOTAL BLAST! The Children's minister chose and excellent program for the summer! Then, I have talked to the youth pastor about volunteering with the teens. I have felt led to be involved with the teens for a long time, but this is my first opportunity to really do it. I am SO excited about that! I want to be that loving, caring voice to those in need. The voice I really needed to hear when I was a teenager. I want to tell these kids not to change who they are, especially who they are in Christ, for anyone or anything!
Aaah, back to life. I need to get studying for the class tonight.
