So about a week ago, I had a long conversation with my ex. I know that neither of us were very happy with how things ended up, but I sure am glad we are both able to come to a point where we can see more clearly. It is nice to be able to talk things out instead of yelling them out. It is nice to share the hurt without hurting that person back. Yes, there are things I won't forget, I am not wired to forget a whole lot (unless you asked me to do it in the last 5 minutes to week, lol), but forgiveness is not only a good thing, but it is commanded by God. I am glad, for the sake of our girls especially, that we have reached a point where we can move forward instead of tripping back over events neither of us can change.
Oh and here is a prime example of things being drastically different, I got a call on my birthday (that day was normally his day) that said I could keep the kids. That was completely awesome, seeing as one of my cousins and I almost share a birthday (his is the day before) and we were having a family dinner to celebrate. The girls were able to come to that and just completely enjoy the day with me. In turn, I am letting him have them tonight. I like this. I think this can be great for everyone! I am a bit shocked by it, but in a good way. I never thought it would happen this quickly, but so glad it has!
I am just so excited that my life is in such a good place right now. I have a church home that I adore, getting along with my ex, the girls are starting back into school and work is finally slowing down. I have been dealing with some "demons" from my childhood and I can feel some release there. I just really am loving life. There is one thing that I want, but I don't have to have. I would love to be dating someone. There is someone in particular that I'm interested in, but I seriously want to build a friendship bond first. I don't want to rush anything and life is good. I don't have to be with anyone, but if things work out, I'd be ecstatic!
So, lesson learned, forgive as Christ has forgiven you! It makes life SO much better than you could ever imagine!
