So, I took this blog off all my info for a while. I wanted to feel like I could be a little be private. I am about to add it back to my facebook information. I have subject that is uncomfortable for most to talk about, but I feel I need to put it out there.
When I was a child, I was sexually abused. I will not reveal by whom, that is not important, I have been able to find forgiveness through God's strength. I will tell you, that does not mean that all memories are wiped away. In fact, my inability to block out some memories played a role in the marriage break-up. It was not the only thing, but it was a big thing.
I have decided, with the help of a Christian counselor, it is time to tackle those demons. It has not been easy. I have cried more than I ever have. I have even realized some of the things that the kids do bother me because of how it connects to these events in my past. I hate that there is even the smallest barrier between my kids and myself. In fact, I kind of pulled back from them while trying to deal with the past. Do I like to admit that? No, but it is the truth.
I want to let others know that God is bringing healing to my heart and life. I want to let them know, that I can be a support to them. I want others to know they are not alone in their pain and their grief. I don't know why I have suffered like I have in my life, personally, but I do know what God says about it. Romans 8:28 says that ALL things work together for good if you love God. His plan is for me to help others heal. I'm not sure why he chose me, but I am willing to reach out to them in their times of need.
I have been listening to my new CD, Beauty Will Rise by Steven Curtis Chapman and if he can take the loss of his precious little girl and reach out to others through that pain. I can take my pain, my past, my lessons learned and share them with others to help their healing.
I have spent the last year finding myself and I can tell you, I am nothing without Christ! Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! I have no strength of my own, I draw it from my life source!
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Thoughts and Prayers
So, I've written about going through a divorce. I got some sad news recently via our kids.
I just wanted to ask thoughts and prayers for my ex, as he has learned that he has one cousin that is not expected to last very long and they are concerned her mother is right behind her. These, emotionally, are the closest relatives he has. I know it will be a difficult time for him.
I just wanted to ask thoughts and prayers for my ex, as he has learned that he has one cousin that is not expected to last very long and they are concerned her mother is right behind her. These, emotionally, are the closest relatives he has. I know it will be a difficult time for him.
Monday, June 07, 2010
Profound Thoughts
So one of my cousins got married this last weekend. It was a beautiful wedding! The pastor that officiated had 2 very profound things to say.
1) The opposite of LOVE is not hate, it is selfishness.
2) HOPE stands for Having Only Positive Expectations
1) The opposite of LOVE is not hate, it is selfishness.
2) HOPE stands for Having Only Positive Expectations
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Taking a break
OK, so I kind of already have. I have caught a bug or two and just generally been wiped out or not had the time to post anything lately. I am taking a break from posting. It's not like there's a whole ton of people flocking here to see what I've posted anyway, lol. I just find it nice to have the potential of sharing a blessing to someone who stumbles across my page.
Wednesday, April 07, 2010
Jesus Death in 60 seconds
60 seconds with God...
For the next 60 seconds, set aside whatever you're doing and take this opportunity!
THE(SCIENTIFIC) DEATH OF JESUS
At the age of 33, Jesus was condemned to the death penalty.
At the time crucifixion was the "worst" death. Only the worst criminals condemned to be crucified. Yet it was even more dreadful for Jesus, unlike other criminals condemned to death by crucifixion Jesus was to be nailed to the cross by His hands and feet.
Each nail was 6 to 8 inches long.
The nails were driven into His wrist. Not into His palms as is commonly portrayed. There's a tendon in the wrist that extends to the shoulder. The Roman guards knew
that when the nails were being hammered into the wrist that tendon would tare and
brake, forcing Jesus to use His back muscles to support himself so that He could
breath.
Both of His feet were nailed together. Thus He was forced to support Himself on the single nail that impaled His feet to the cross. Jesus could not support himself with His legs because of the pain so He was forced to alternate between arching His back then using his legs just to continue to breath. Imagine the struggle, the pain, the suffering, the courage.
Jesus endured this reality for over 3 hours.
Yes, over 3 hours! Can you imagine this kind of suffering? A few minutes before He died, Jesus stopped bleeding. He was simply pouring water from his wounds.
From common images we see wounds to His hands and feet and even the spear wound
to His side. But do we realize His wounds were actually made in his body. A hammer
driving large nails through the wrist, the feet overlapped and an even large nail hammered through the arches, then a Roman guard piercing His side with a spear. But before the nails and the spear Jesus was whipped and beaten. The whipping was so severe that it tore the flesh from His body. The beating so horrific that His
face was torn and his beard ripped from His face. The crown of thorns cut deeply into His scalp. Most men would not have survived this torture.
He had no more blood to bleed out, only water poured from His wounds. The human adult body contains about 3.5 liters (just less than a gallon) of blood.
Jesus poured all 3.5 liters of his blood; He had three nails hammered into His
members; a crown of thorns on His head and, beyond that, a Roman soldier who stabbed a spear into His chest.
All these without mentioning the humiliation He passed after carrying His own
cross for almost 2 kilometers, while the crowd spat in his face and threw stones (the cross was almost 30 kg of weight, only for its higher part, where His hands were nailed).
Jesus had to endure this experience, so that you can have free access to God.
So that your sins could be "washed" away. All of them, with no exception!
Don't ignore this situation.
JESUS CHRIST DIED FOR YOU!
For you, who now read this. Do not believe that He only died for others (those who go to church or for pastors, bishops, etc).
He died for you! It is easy to post jokes or foolish photos, but when it comes to God, sometimes you feel ashamed to tell others because you are worried of what they may think about you.
Accept the reality, the truth that JESUS IS THE ONLY SALVATION FOR THE WORLD.
God has plans for you, show all your friends what He experienced to save you. Now think about this! May God bless your life!
60 seconds with God...
For the next 60 seconds, set aside what you're doing and take this opportunity!
All you have to do is:
1. Simply pray for the person who sent this message to you:
2.Then, send this message on to others.
3. People will pray for you and many people will pray to God for other people.
4. Take a moment to appreciate the power of God in your life, for doing what pleases Him.
If you are not ashamed to do this, please, follow Jesus' instructions.
He said (Matthew 10:32 & 33): "Everyone therefore who acknowledges me before others, I also will acknowledge before My Father in heaven; but whosoever denies Me
before others, I also will deny before My Father in heaven".
If you believe, post this message... But only if you believe in Christ Jesus is your Lord and Savior.
Yes, I love God. He is my source of life and my Savior. He keeps me alive day and night.
Without Him, I am nothing, but with Him "I can do all things through Him who strengthens me". Philippians 4:13.
For the next 60 seconds, set aside whatever you're doing and take this opportunity!
THE(SCIENTIFIC) DEATH OF JESUS
At the age of 33, Jesus was condemned to the death penalty.
At the time crucifixion was the "worst" death. Only the worst criminals condemned to be crucified. Yet it was even more dreadful for Jesus, unlike other criminals condemned to death by crucifixion Jesus was to be nailed to the cross by His hands and feet.
Each nail was 6 to 8 inches long.
The nails were driven into His wrist. Not into His palms as is commonly portrayed. There's a tendon in the wrist that extends to the shoulder. The Roman guards knew
that when the nails were being hammered into the wrist that tendon would tare and
brake, forcing Jesus to use His back muscles to support himself so that He could
breath.
Both of His feet were nailed together. Thus He was forced to support Himself on the single nail that impaled His feet to the cross. Jesus could not support himself with His legs because of the pain so He was forced to alternate between arching His back then using his legs just to continue to breath. Imagine the struggle, the pain, the suffering, the courage.
Jesus endured this reality for over 3 hours.
Yes, over 3 hours! Can you imagine this kind of suffering? A few minutes before He died, Jesus stopped bleeding. He was simply pouring water from his wounds.
From common images we see wounds to His hands and feet and even the spear wound
to His side. But do we realize His wounds were actually made in his body. A hammer
driving large nails through the wrist, the feet overlapped and an even large nail hammered through the arches, then a Roman guard piercing His side with a spear. But before the nails and the spear Jesus was whipped and beaten. The whipping was so severe that it tore the flesh from His body. The beating so horrific that His
face was torn and his beard ripped from His face. The crown of thorns cut deeply into His scalp. Most men would not have survived this torture.
He had no more blood to bleed out, only water poured from His wounds. The human adult body contains about 3.5 liters (just less than a gallon) of blood.
Jesus poured all 3.5 liters of his blood; He had three nails hammered into His
members; a crown of thorns on His head and, beyond that, a Roman soldier who stabbed a spear into His chest.
All these without mentioning the humiliation He passed after carrying His own
cross for almost 2 kilometers, while the crowd spat in his face and threw stones (the cross was almost 30 kg of weight, only for its higher part, where His hands were nailed).
Jesus had to endure this experience, so that you can have free access to God.
So that your sins could be "washed" away. All of them, with no exception!
Don't ignore this situation.
JESUS CHRIST DIED FOR YOU!
For you, who now read this. Do not believe that He only died for others (those who go to church or for pastors, bishops, etc).
He died for you! It is easy to post jokes or foolish photos, but when it comes to God, sometimes you feel ashamed to tell others because you are worried of what they may think about you.
Accept the reality, the truth that JESUS IS THE ONLY SALVATION FOR THE WORLD.
God has plans for you, show all your friends what He experienced to save you. Now think about this! May God bless your life!
60 seconds with God...
For the next 60 seconds, set aside what you're doing and take this opportunity!
All you have to do is:
1. Simply pray for the person who sent this message to you:
2.Then, send this message on to others.
3. People will pray for you and many people will pray to God for other people.
4. Take a moment to appreciate the power of God in your life, for doing what pleases Him.
If you are not ashamed to do this, please, follow Jesus' instructions.
He said (Matthew 10:32 & 33): "Everyone therefore who acknowledges me before others, I also will acknowledge before My Father in heaven; but whosoever denies Me
before others, I also will deny before My Father in heaven".
If you believe, post this message... But only if you believe in Christ Jesus is your Lord and Savior.
Yes, I love God. He is my source of life and my Savior. He keeps me alive day and night.
Without Him, I am nothing, but with Him "I can do all things through Him who strengthens me". Philippians 4:13.
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