When I got off work this morning, as I do most mornings, I sat down at the computer to "catch up" with my friends. This is when I go through the "300+" old posts on facebook. I came across one that I felt was very poignant.
Trust is like a mirror...once its BROKEN you can never look at it the same again.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Friday, July 09, 2010
Don't Cry for Me
My pastor, who fought cancer since the early 2000s went home to be with the Lord earlier this week. From what I know of him, both through personal interactions and stories of people whose lives he touched, I would like to say he was the most Christ-like person I have ever met. We all miss him dearly!
I think, though, that he would not want us to cry for him. He is in Heaven with Jesus! His is no longer in pain. He is walking streets of gold and hanging out in his mansion. So, it puts me in mind of a country song. It's by Brad Paisley and it is called When I Get Where I'm Going. Look it up on youtube. It's a great song!
Today is pastor's funeral. I know there will be lots of tears today, but I am so glad to know that he is walking with Jesus and no longer suffering! He was intent on bringing God glory throughout the entire ordeal. One person I know of said that when he would visit the pastor, trying to comfort him, he always came away being comforted himself. The pastor was selfless and loving!
I don't know the best way to end this post, but I am so glad to have known this wonderful man!
I think, though, that he would not want us to cry for him. He is in Heaven with Jesus! His is no longer in pain. He is walking streets of gold and hanging out in his mansion. So, it puts me in mind of a country song. It's by Brad Paisley and it is called When I Get Where I'm Going. Look it up on youtube. It's a great song!
Today is pastor's funeral. I know there will be lots of tears today, but I am so glad to know that he is walking with Jesus and no longer suffering! He was intent on bringing God glory throughout the entire ordeal. One person I know of said that when he would visit the pastor, trying to comfort him, he always came away being comforted himself. The pastor was selfless and loving!
I don't know the best way to end this post, but I am so glad to have known this wonderful man!
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Some thoughts and feelings
So, I took this blog off all my info for a while. I wanted to feel like I could be a little be private. I am about to add it back to my facebook information. I have subject that is uncomfortable for most to talk about, but I feel I need to put it out there.
When I was a child, I was sexually abused. I will not reveal by whom, that is not important, I have been able to find forgiveness through God's strength. I will tell you, that does not mean that all memories are wiped away. In fact, my inability to block out some memories played a role in the marriage break-up. It was not the only thing, but it was a big thing.
I have decided, with the help of a Christian counselor, it is time to tackle those demons. It has not been easy. I have cried more than I ever have. I have even realized some of the things that the kids do bother me because of how it connects to these events in my past. I hate that there is even the smallest barrier between my kids and myself. In fact, I kind of pulled back from them while trying to deal with the past. Do I like to admit that? No, but it is the truth.
I want to let others know that God is bringing healing to my heart and life. I want to let them know, that I can be a support to them. I want others to know they are not alone in their pain and their grief. I don't know why I have suffered like I have in my life, personally, but I do know what God says about it. Romans 8:28 says that ALL things work together for good if you love God. His plan is for me to help others heal. I'm not sure why he chose me, but I am willing to reach out to them in their times of need.
I have been listening to my new CD, Beauty Will Rise by Steven Curtis Chapman and if he can take the loss of his precious little girl and reach out to others through that pain. I can take my pain, my past, my lessons learned and share them with others to help their healing.
I have spent the last year finding myself and I can tell you, I am nothing without Christ! Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! I have no strength of my own, I draw it from my life source!
When I was a child, I was sexually abused. I will not reveal by whom, that is not important, I have been able to find forgiveness through God's strength. I will tell you, that does not mean that all memories are wiped away. In fact, my inability to block out some memories played a role in the marriage break-up. It was not the only thing, but it was a big thing.
I have decided, with the help of a Christian counselor, it is time to tackle those demons. It has not been easy. I have cried more than I ever have. I have even realized some of the things that the kids do bother me because of how it connects to these events in my past. I hate that there is even the smallest barrier between my kids and myself. In fact, I kind of pulled back from them while trying to deal with the past. Do I like to admit that? No, but it is the truth.
I want to let others know that God is bringing healing to my heart and life. I want to let them know, that I can be a support to them. I want others to know they are not alone in their pain and their grief. I don't know why I have suffered like I have in my life, personally, but I do know what God says about it. Romans 8:28 says that ALL things work together for good if you love God. His plan is for me to help others heal. I'm not sure why he chose me, but I am willing to reach out to them in their times of need.
I have been listening to my new CD, Beauty Will Rise by Steven Curtis Chapman and if he can take the loss of his precious little girl and reach out to others through that pain. I can take my pain, my past, my lessons learned and share them with others to help their healing.
I have spent the last year finding myself and I can tell you, I am nothing without Christ! Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! I have no strength of my own, I draw it from my life source!
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Thoughts and Prayers
So, I've written about going through a divorce. I got some sad news recently via our kids.
I just wanted to ask thoughts and prayers for my ex, as he has learned that he has one cousin that is not expected to last very long and they are concerned her mother is right behind her. These, emotionally, are the closest relatives he has. I know it will be a difficult time for him.
I just wanted to ask thoughts and prayers for my ex, as he has learned that he has one cousin that is not expected to last very long and they are concerned her mother is right behind her. These, emotionally, are the closest relatives he has. I know it will be a difficult time for him.
Monday, June 07, 2010
Profound Thoughts
So one of my cousins got married this last weekend. It was a beautiful wedding! The pastor that officiated had 2 very profound things to say.
1) The opposite of LOVE is not hate, it is selfishness.
2) HOPE stands for Having Only Positive Expectations
1) The opposite of LOVE is not hate, it is selfishness.
2) HOPE stands for Having Only Positive Expectations
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