Well, this post is brought on by church on Sunday. We are currently in transition between our pastor who passed away last July and a new permanent pastor. Enter transitional pastor. This is a new term/idea for me, but I like it. Really this man is coming in and helping us get our lives in order so we can be open to God's leading for our new pastor. He will not ever be our permanent pastor, but it gives our associate pastor a break from being the leader until we find/decide on the permanent pastor.
This week, he spoke of things that could be hindering our prayer life. Well, as for me, I have major issues with my prayer life, so I felt it was important to listen up. I realized that there were several people I needed to make things right with and some I needed to stop holding a grudge toward. It is not easy going to someone and admitting that you were wrong, asking forgiveness and (especially for me) to stop holding a grudge toward someone.
I would actually like to thank a dear friend from my Sunday School class for opening this door a few weeks ago. He told me that no matter whether I wanted to hear it or not, GOD wanted me to truly forgive the people that have done wrong toward me (or at least that I felt did wrong toward me) and that God would never complete shut the door on someone in their life. Enter growing pains. The weeks between this conversation and this weeks sermon have brought a lot of thinking and questioning, a bit of crying, but in the end it became clear on Sunday what it was God was wanting me to do. Now, to find the courage to do it and the contact information for a couple of the people I'd like to speak to. I want to be right with God and my fellow man.
Please pray for me as I seek to do God's will and reach out to those I've offended. Praying especially that I speak peace and remember my life's verse. Micah 6:8
